Where am I going?

There are about 15 different topics I would love to write about but there just isn’t time. Life gets busy, as it should, and there is always time for the things we make time for, but we must keep our priorities straight. I have a feeling I will always have more than one thing I’d like to write about on my blog, so I shall always do my best to choose just one or two topics and write about those as time allows. Today I chose the question, where am I going?

As I travel through life and do my day to day tasks, what am I doing? what is my purpose? where am I going? I get up in the morning (so that I can get tired all day so that I can sleep the next night), do my devotions, feed my animals (so they can just get hungry again), feed myself (so I can just get hungry again), clean the house (so it can just get dirty again), study school (so I can study more when I finish that), try to check each item off my to-do list (so I can start on a new list the next day), practice violin (because I will loose my ability to play if I don’t), teach violin (so I can make money so I can buy the things I need to buy so that I can live so that I can keeping teaching so that I can make more money so that…wait, am I going in a circle?)…wow! That’s rather depressing! Solomon, the wisest man there ever was, or ever will be, thought so too.

Eccl 1:14  I have seen all the works that are done under the sun; and, behold, all [is] vanity and vexation of spirit.

Eccl 2:11  Then I looked on all the works that my hands had wrought, and on the labour that I had laboured to do: and, behold, all [was] vanity and vexation of spirit, and [there was] no profit under the sun.

Eccl 2:17  Therefore I hated life; because the work that is wrought under the sun [is] grievous unto me: for all [is] vanity and vexation of spirit.

No, that is indeed the wrong perspective to have on life. My purpose is to please the Lord (Rev 4:11). Therefore, the answer to questions like, what am I doing? or where am I going? need to please the Lord or else “Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all [is] vanity.” (Eccl 1:2)

Okay, let’s try this again: I get up in the morning (so that I can praise the Lord and serve Him all day long), do my devotions (so I can strengthen my relationship with my Saviour, learning more about Him and His ways), feed my animals (so I can get my morning exercise, enjoy God’s creation, and learn from them; they give endless numbers of examples of a master/servant relationship), feed myself (so as to gain the strength I need to fulfill the tasks the Lord has for me to accomplish that day), clean the house (1 Cor 14:40 “Let all things be done decently and in order.”, so we can be “given to hospitality” Rom 12:13), study school (Pro 18:15 “The heart of the prudent getteth knowledge; and the ear of the wise seeketh knowledge.”), try to check each item off my to-do list (People have learned that checklists help us get things done more efficiently. Eph 5:16 “Redeeming the time, because the days are evil.”), practice violin (Psa 33:3 “Sing unto him a new song; play skilfully with a loud noise.”), teach violin (so I can pass along the gift of music)…ahh, how refreshing! What a difference!

Every task that God has for us to do each day has a purpose. A purpose that serves the ultimate purpose of pleasing Him. A purpose of shaping us (the clay) into what He (the potter) wants us to be.

Isa 64:8 “But now, O LORD, thou [art] our father; we [are] the clay, and thou our potter; and we all [are] the work of thy hand.”

Growing up, I spent most of my time learning music or helping Dad with building projects. When I wasn’t doing that, I was off in the woods with animals doing whatever kids do. Oh yeah, and I did do a bit of school here and there. If you looked at one of my days growing up, it would appear that I wasn’t learning much. But when I was old enough to go to college, all those days added together had prepared me for it and I was accepted at the University level, which surprised me.

We like to see noticeable progress or change in our life every day. We get impatient and think that God isn’t working in our life. But really, He is, it’s just that he knows He has eternity. James 4:14 “…For what [is] your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.” God is outside of time. You probably aren’t going to notice God changing you. But if you look back on your life, you will probably, hopefully, be able to see that he has been working on you.

If I am just willing to do whatever God wants me to do, however big or small, important or menial it may appear to be, he will use it to prepare me for the things he has for me to do later in my life. I don’t need to understand how helping Dad screw the roofing on, or studying Principles of Marketing is going to help me later in life. I just need to do everything as unto the Lord.

Col 3:23  “And whatsoever ye do, do [it] heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;”

So then, where am I going? Wherever God is taking me. When I was little I was very confident I would become a veterinarian when I grew up. Then, when I was about 15, getting very serious about playing the violin, I was quite confident I would become a professional musician. And now, I have no idea! But I’m pretty sure it won’t be either a veterinarian or a professional musician. At least, that won’t be my main title. Maybe I’ll always work with animals and music, who knows. I’m already playing and teaching music “professionally” (since that only means that you are paid to do it). I read in a book one time that your job is “what you do, not who you are.” I’m not a violinist, but I do play the violin.  I am a child of God, saved by grace, through faith, called according to His purpose!

So then you might ask, but if you don’t become a professional musician, doesn’t that mean you wasted all those years of studying, practicing, and lessons? Absolutely not. God has taught me so many things through all of that…but don’t get ahead of me! That’s my next blog entry. 😉

I spent a lot of time these past few weeks hunting. Here I am at the end of the season, with no meat. I’ve thought about that a bit off and on. Does the fact that I didn’t get any meat mean that I wasted all the time I spent hunting? No, though it feels like it at times. If getting meat were the only reason I was going to go hunting, I probably wouldn’t have gone. Though I may not of brought any meat home, I did get to spend a lot of time in the woods enjoying God’s creation, I most certainly got my exercise, enjoyed some great fellowship, learned a lot about how to hunt, saw 20 running animals, and realized that the animals are much much smater than humans. One of my fellow hunters said, “They do this for a living! We come out here and do it once a year.”

3 Responses to “Where am I going?”

  1. Kristina says:

    very well said Suzanne! you have a gift of the written word and your perspective on life is so encouraging to me. thank you!

  2. Mariya says:

    That is refreshing!!! 🙂

  3. Carolyn says:

    Thank you for sharing this, Suzanne. May God continue to give you direction and faithfulness, love and joy.

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